Getting out of the wood also mean getting out of negative emotions.
My name is Peter. I finished from the University of Lagos Akoka, Yaba.
Here is my suicide testimony. When I left University, I didn’t know what to do with my life and I didn’t want to go back home to my parents because my stepfather always maltreats me and my younger ones. I didn’t want to go back to the life that I left when I was coming to the university.
I search within myself to know what I could do with my life. Try as hard I could I didn’t seem to find any way out. I was practically blank and I had no money.
I have nowhere to go and no one seems to care. I was down. I thought of different things I could do but I couldn’t place my hand on any.
Since there’s nothing else to do, I thought of suicide as my only option – what use is my existence if I have nothing to do and I have to go back home? I struggled within trying to talk to myself but everything was to no avail.
My mind was made up to terminate my life but before I took the step of committing suicide, l decided to reach out to the person that used to help me when I was in school, he helped me with my academic work back in school with the books to read and I used to ask him questions when I have challenges so I decided to reach out to him.
When I spoke to him, he told me to come to see him in church. After church service, he shared his life story with me of how he also lived his life at a point in time when he didn’t have anything to do.
Fortunately, for me he informed the Pastor of the church who announced that a friend of his needed a graphic designer so I decided to give it a try. Then I got the job.
I was able to manage with it and that’s how my suicidal thoughts pattern ended.
This is my testimony of how I overcame a suicidal thought.